Happy Anniversary, Love.

define time;
the thing that is measured as seconds, minutes, hours, days and even years.
people said either time could go too slow or too swift, too long or too short,

it all depends on what we really feel in that particular time.

for example, when we feel happy, time tends to elapse faster because we enjoyed it. 

otherwise, when we have some difficulties, time goes a little slower than ever.

we can easily measure the amount of time,

but how to 'measure' time in terms of love?

when we are undoubtely in love, time becomes an unmeasureable thing; time is infinite.

it flies over us and sometimes we didn't realize, it just happened.

we've been through a lot of things together in just a year: the upside & the downside, 

and i cannot put them all into a nice paragraph.

but there is one thing i know for sure, that i feel much happier when i'm with you.

and i thank God for such comfort i've been experiencing daily since you asked me out for a lunch that day on October last year, and it brought me into a realization that i want to spend more time with you, and sure those 365 days won't be enough.

so why don't we spend more time together?

let's measure it in our own timeless ways,

let's strengthen each others in all pain & sorrow,

let's hold on to each others a little longer,

let's, just let's love with all that we had, have and will have.

happy anniversary, love.

13/12/14 - 13/12/15 ❤

13 x 6.

No, it is not a post about multiplication or math problem.

It is a little appreciation post about me & my boyfriend's six months-versary (?)
I know it's waaaaay too late to post about it (almost two weeks has passed since June 13th tho). I got plenty things to do, my thesis proposal is getting more complicated, got no time to write on this blog and other excuses blahblahblah that's why I didn't make it on d-day, but I guess it's better late than never, right?

Anyway, he gave me a little surprise that day. A bucket of pretty flowers.

It may seems nothing special but the thing is, he's not really fond of flowers. Even though I kept asking for it and told him many times before that I really f-a-n-c-y flowers, he never gave me once, not even on my birthday — well.. at least he finally did it. Never knew he could turn to be this romantic kind of guy on our special occasion. He even told me that my smile was kind of unforgettable that day, right after I saw those flowers :))))
So here's my lame (and also cringe-worthy) attempt to express my feelings for him:

To the one whom I spent most of my times with for the past six months;
Who holds my hand and take me to this on-going awesome journey;
Who sticks with me through ups and downs (in terms of my current mood LOL);
Who appreciates me for who I really am;
The person whom I think about the first thing in the morning and the last thing at night;
Who makes distance seems short and bearable lately (still trying my best tho);
The one who encourages me to become a better person;
Whose affection elevates me;
And whose arms protect me from bad things and sorrows.

Selamat tanggal 13 yang ke-6. I love you, Agi.
Let's spend more time happily together! ❤

Quatre.

to this very day, I still wonder how things are gonna be;
how WE are gonna be if I didn't ask you the question that night, four months ago.
would we still belong together?
or would we end up differently?

been thinking about it for, I don't know, these past few sleepless nights.
what if I didn't ask you that night?
what if I let the opportunity slip away?
what if... well too many what-if(s) to be very honest.

I know I should keep my true thought locked up somewhere,
but I, once again, let myself filled my heart with these uncertain feelings,
and this piece of thought, that we might have grown apart in our own pathways.
(well, even just the thought itself scares the hell out of me..)

but somehow, my (naive) heart is now trying to convince myself that I did the right thing,
asked you the question about us,
about what we were that time.

I don't know where is life taking us,
and even if I didn't ask about it, I believe things would ended up like it should be,
like we have it right now.

to my dear man, happy quatre. X

Promise.

You promised me things, a lot.
You promised me that you can be trusted.
You promised me that you'll try your best to be honest all the time
You promised me that this time, I will see you as a guy I really deserve.

I appreciate it, I really do.
Because you showed me that you're willing to be a better person for me.
But somehow I feel bad at the same time.
Because I won't promise those things in return, my dear.
Because I'm afraid I couldn't keep them.
And in the end, those promises will only become bunch of empty words that might hurt you instead.

What I can promise you for now is time.
Time to get to know each other further and better.
So let's play this safe— slow and steady,
and most importantly, certain.

I know, we both might have promised 'forever' to our former loved ones,
and either way we have long forgotten about it, or we have simply given up on that overrated idea.
So let's not talk about 'forever'.
How about 'tomorrow' first?

Tomorrow, I'd love to read 'good morning' text from you when I wake up.
Tomorrow, I'd love to see a pair of your beautiful eyes, perfectly framed with those thick eyebrows.
Tomorrow, I'd love to see your radiant smile, hear your silly chuckles, and gasp to your lovely body scent.
Tomorrow, I'd love to give my hands to you, let them to be touched and caressed by you.
Tomorrow, I'd love to sit next to you, talk about stuffs, or just comfortably share silence together.
Because in the end, what we really have is tomorrow.

And tomorrow I will love you better, eventually.

Before Us

Hi there, love.

Came across this beautiful candid shot of you, taken few months ago before we started going out with each other. Revisited that day when you came in front of my house just to brought me a pack of Milo since I craved (and needed) one; and thank you, still.

It made me think, though, of how pleasant life has been since you're around. Made me even wonder, of how surprising you could fill myself in the right places from the very first encounter. We barely know each other before, yet look where we are now; me and you, trying to work things out together as a mutual bond between two individuals called relationship. It's rather funny and amazing when someone enters your life out of nowhere and suddenly means more, more than the things (or person) you could ever think of. That someone, somehow, means the entire world to you.

Right now, we may be thousands of miles apart (and too bad we couldn't spend time together on January 13th), but it's heartwarming to know that I'm still the first thing that came to your mind (LOL ofc I know this is one of your daily dose of flattery, but nonetheless, I grinned happily like a fool).

It has been officially a month of total happiness. Thank you, A :)
Here's to more joyful months and years together (hey! one can only hope, right?), cheers! Xx

P.S: I miss you quite terribly. Cannot wait to see you soon next week :-(